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Endurance
Medicine school and the subsequent residency training are a test of endurance. As I come near the end of my residency, sad to say, I am feeling more and more burnt out by the day. I count each day. I hesitate to get up in the morning and leave the house. But somehow I manage to just go and face each day, although, with a heavy heart. Perhaps it's really just about attitude. I can try to face each day with a renewed vigor, or let my self pass it with weight on my shoulders. Yes, it maybe just be all in the mind. Whichever, I try to take it a day at a time. It's too late to turn back and quit, I'm almost at the finish line. This is indeed a test of endurance. I remember clerkship, the last of the 4 years in med school. It was the hardest, psychologically, physically, emotionally. How I wanted it to end so badly, and never go back. And somehow, I surpassed it. I'm going through the same thing all over again. It's hard to get into something one isn't too passionate about. But I'm here. I'll probably thank myself in the future for never giving up. I know, after this, things will get better. Afterall, becoming a doctor, an anesthesiologist at that, doesn't sound so bad.
By jadetv @ 5:24 PM
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